La Nuit Du Chasseur..

I was born of the womb of a poisonous man
Beaten and broken and chased from the land
But I rise up above it, high up above it and see
I was hung from the tree made of tongues of the weak
The branches, the bones of the liars and thieves
Rise up above it, high up above it and see

Pray to your god, open your heart
Whatever you do don't be afraid of the dark
Cover your eyes, the devil's inside

One night of the hunter
One day I will get revenge
One night to remember
One day it'll all just end.. Oh..

Blessed by a bitch from a bastard's seed
Pleasure to meet you but better to bleed
Rise, I'll rise, I'll rise...
Skinned her alive, ripped her apart
Scattered her ashes, buried her heart
Rise up above it, high up above it and see

Pray to your god, open your heart
Whatever you do, don't be afraid of the dark
Cover your eyes, the devil's inside

One night of the hunter
One day I will get revenge
One night to remember
One day it'll all just end.. Oh..

Honest to god I will break your heart
Tear you to pieces and rip you apart
Honest to god I will break your heart
Tear you to pieces and rip you apart
Honest to god I will break your heart
Tear you to pieces and rip you apart
Honest to god I will break your heart
Tear you to pieces and rip you apart..

One night of the hunter
One day I will get revenge
One night to remember
One day it'll all just end.. Oh..

Currently in love with it.. <3

Favourite things..

Well Laura I thank you for tagging me in this.. As this will now prove how little of a life I really have :)
My favourite things at the moment..
- My iPod.
- My pumps with the sparkly bits on the side.
- Jared Leto.
- Eastenders.
- My Harry Potter books.
- Showers.
- The amazing feeling after buying gig tickets.
- Sunglasses.
- Trams.
- My pencil and stash of paper waiting to be used.

This is harder than it looks! I'm gonna leave it there now and I would pass it on to my followers but Laura's already done it and so I just have Tracey to pass it on to :)

The afterlife..

Do you believe in the afterlife? I'm not so sure.. I'd sound crazy to say I did, but then to say I didn't would be a lie to all I've experienced and to myself, and personally, I'm not much of a liar! I don't really wanna bring this up 'cause it'll probably just upset me, but as it's seriously bugging me and effecting me at the moment, I feel I must. Unfortunately my next door neighbor passed away earlier on this year.. And it's affected me dearly, however I knew that if I experienced anything weird I'd know what I believed about the afterlife.. I've experienced too much and I'm still not sure.. I've tried to use the excuse of "it's psychological" but every time it's been when I haven't been thinking about him.. So it can't be. Soon after his death, I smelled weed, and he was a heavy smoker of it.. I've smelled it a few times and every time it's been around me, it only ever happens to me, and I put that down to the fact that as a kid he was like the big brother I never had, he seriously looked after me and so to lose him had a really big effect on me.. God I'd love for an older brother, but like, quite a lot older than me.. Every night, after around 2am, I hear doors slamming next door, which was a nightly routine for him, there's always at least one door closing every night. Last night there were 2. So I didn't sleep much and just cried to myself. One night there was a door slam and then someone went thudding up the stairs, just like he used to, but luckily that's only happened once. And there was one night when I couldn't sleep again and I got thirsty so I went downstairs at around 4am to make myself a cup of hot chocolate and someone was arguing next door, like full on screaming at someone, just like he used to when he didn't get on with his dad, but there was only one voice, just arguing to itself.. That was probably the scariest situation yet. I have every reason to believe in the afterlife, but I just can't accept it I guess, and I don't know what will make me. What's it going to take to throw me over the edge? I wake up to find him watching over me? I don't know, christ if that happened I'd never sleep again.. Help, please?

Yesterday was eventful.. Job hunting. Tbh that says enough! I went into town with my friend Tracey with a load of CV's, hoping to get rid of the vast majority of them. Lets just say that we still have most of them :) Nowhere had any vacancies and the ones that did, you had to apply online, which didn't really work out for us! A couple of places took in CV's, and I got an application form from Starbucks, which was quite weird as I met up with my cousin later on and he said he'd got an interview in Starbucks on Thursday :) That would be pretty cool tbh, although, if I know this family well.. And I'm sure I do.. Starbucks will not hire two people with the name of Gawthorpe, so I'd best get looking somewhere else! After searching for a while, Tracey thought it would be good to meet up with her college friends Ben and Adam... I texted our Mike and asked him to meet me :) Which he did bless him, it was only for an hour though 'cause he was meeting his exes parents... Again it was a lovely meet up, and we sat and had a coffee outside Starbucks :) I tried to stay with him as long as I could but in a way I wish I hadn't 'cause his exes parents tried to get me to stay and have a meal with them which resulted in an argument at that place outside the City Hall XD Ahhh they were lovely, very fussy people. It wouldn't have been right going for a meal with them anyways, all they wanted to do was meet up with Mike and give him some stuff back, even though they all said I was more than welcome :) Which made me feel special as that was only my first meeting with them and my second with Mike :) I then went back to join Tracey and people and then went home :) So yeah, a very unsuccessful day! :) The weather was lovely though and I topped up my tan on my back :) which I'm chuffed about! I don't seem to tan anywhere else =/ Just my back haha! I've gotta go back into town at some point with these application forms.. Which should be fun! I'm bored of this game now haha, all I want is a job!! :(

Matthew Leone.

This is what I was going to do my post on yesterday but it just completely slipped my mind.. Makes me sound pretty heartless but I have to say that's what happened =/...

Suffering a massive shock …

i’m afraid I have some of the worst news that has ever hit our lives. It’s almost impossible to even type this update. A few nights ago, Matthew walked from my apt. a block and a half down the street to meet a friend for a drink. half way there he saw a man severely beating his wife. Being the most amazing, strong, heroic and incredible person I know.. even though the guy was twice his size, Matthew intervened. He managed to subdue this guy for a second and since his wife was beat up pretty good called the cops.. as he did so the guy jumped him from behind and beat him. This guy did things I can’t even type. After words, he and his beaten wife left Matthew unconcious on the street. Matthew is in the hospital with a third of his skull removed as we wait for the swelling in his brain to go down. I’d rather not share any additional information at this time besides the fact that he acted as a hero (as he always would in any of these situations) and is paying a horrific price. Pease send all your love and good energy and vibrations to him. I’ve been and will be next to him throughout the entire recovery process. We don’t know enough yet details about how that will develop.. but it has shocked, stunned, disgusted our best friends, family and band (which are both). The world can be evil beyond belief and as much as we want this evil eliminated, right now our hearts heads and energies need to go to my best friend, soul mate, hero, and angel, Matthew. Love you all and will be in touch as soon as I can muster up the emotional energy to reach out again. Please, be safe and peaceful as we get through this impossible time.

Nathan

This has been a real eye opener to me.. It doesn't matter who you are or what you do, if you get in the way no one cares. There are some serious bastards out there and they really need to grow up.. Children turn to violence 'cause they don't know any other way.. However when you grow up you realise there are other alternatives.. Clearly this person hasn't grown up. To beat up your partner is one thing.. But to beat up someone you don't know; they could be anyone, could this person not see why Matthew was stepping in? Maybe take his abusive behaviour somewhere else that's not in the middle of the street? I actually felt sorry for the girl who he was abusing until I read that she walked away from Matthew after he'd just risked his life to save hers! Tbh she's just as sick as him. Luckily Matthew's making a quick recovery and is getting stronger each day. I don't know the guy but I have seen him and his band twice now and you start to feel a connection with them, like you know them. And this upset me dearly, I actually shed a few tears over it when I read it. It's just disgusting and I can't imagine what could make anyone result to that kind of behaviour.. This is what makes me thankful for who I am and how I've been brought up.. If I ever found myself acting that way towards someone I don't know what I'd do.. However if I ever was in the same situation as Matthew, I hope that I could act as bravely as he did. Matthew Leone is now a major role model in my life and I look up to him. My thoughts go out to Nathan too.. He's been through enough shit to last him a life time, and to hear this about his brother must have crushed him.. Bastards.. There's not much more I can say tbh...

I just had a thought for this post... And it's completely gone =/ ..
Oh yeah :) December! :O I'm gonna see You Me At Six and I found out today that The Blackout are supporting! Oh my good god! I actually nearly cried when I saw it! What a night that's going to be! I can't wait.. And hopefully.. 9 days after is 30 Seconds To Mars!! My mum gets paid on Friday so I'll ask her for tickets then :) I thought I was bad with You Me At Six but when I saw that 30 Seconds To Mars were touring I actually cried.. And I watched their latest video (Closer To The Edge) and actually cried. I cry when I listen to their stuff too 'cause I can imagine me stood their watching them perform it and wow.. I've never been this bad when thinking about a gig other than when thinking about Robbie Williams... That's how much I love 30 Seconds To Mars; for those who know me well will understand how much that is.
=/ shits kicking off.. Going for the night :)
Byee x